sitting still and waiting.

i am not one who likes to sit still. or, if i am sitting still i want to be doing something while i sit. this is true in my spiritual life as well. so, i am battling that as i study... yuck. i did not get the gene that laura beth and i think sarah got... i do not enjoy school and reading and studying. i definitely would rather work. i'll work all day, i'll create things, i'll plan things, but i don't want to sit and learn. this is why i am posting on my blog while i should be studying! i wish that i had more patience. and, i do not like to wait on God when He is not giving me the thing that i want. that's something, though, that He definitely has been working on in me for a long time. today i read the following passage in morning and evening and in 2 corinthians. it was just what i needed to hear.

"God often delays in answering prayer... Our Father has reasons peculiar to himself for thus keeping us waiting... Thou art perhaps kept waiting in order that thy desires may be more fervent. God knows that delay will quicken and increase desire, and that if he keeps thee waiting thou wilt see thy necessity more clearly, and wilt seek more earnestly; and that thou wilt prize the mercy all the more for its long tarrying... Thy prayers are all filed in heaven, and if not immediately answered they are certainly not forgotten, but in a little while shall be fulfilled to thy delight and satisfaction. Let not despair make thee silent, but continue instant in earnest supplication." - Spurgeon

"Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But He said to me, 'my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses so that the power of Christ may rest upon me." - 2 Corinthians 12:8-9