Turning toward Home.

"When it was over and they could talk about it
She said there's just one thing I have got to know
What in that moment when you were running so hard and fast
Made you stop and turn for home
He said I always knew you loved me even though I'd broken your heart
I always knew there'd be a place for me to make a brand new start

Oh love wash over a multitude of things
Love wash over a multitude of things
Love wash over a multitude of things
Make us whole

When it was over and they could talk about it
They were sitting on the couch
She said what on earth made you stay here
When you finally figured out what I was all about
He said I always knew you'd do the right thing
Even though it might take some time
She said, Yeah, I felt that and that's probably what saved my life

Oh love wash over a multitude of things
Love wash over a multitude of things
Love wash over a multitude of things
Make us whole

There is a love that never fails
There is a healing that always prevails
There is a hope that whispers a vow
A promise to stay while we're working it out
So come with your love and wash over us"

- Sara Groves

So... here I am with my lyrics. Sometimes I believe I rely on music and books a little too much, but I love the way they speak to me. I should not be writing right now, and I will keep it short. I have a test tomorrow that caught up on by surprise. It is in World Literature 2. If you are reading this because you came from Laura Beth's blog, than you'll see a bit of similarity in me of her. (Except, I don't know if that sentence was structured correctly.) I am not going to pretend like I am nearly as intellegent in literature or writing as she is, but I do enjoy World Literature so much. While I am struggling away in Accounting, Spanish, Marketing, etc... I find a bit of relief in Lit. because I can actually speak the language a bit. I can actually think about what Ms. Olsen is saying and try to figure it out and comprehend it. She actually enjoys my ideas and I am quite baffled by that. School is not my favorite. This week I was sitting outside Cambridge Coffee, studying Marketing, and I looked across the street. I saw several students walk onto Samford Lawn with drawing boards and sit down in random areas of the grass and begin to sketch. I literally had to hold back tears because I so rarely get to let out any creativity that is in me. I feel confound by tests and busyness and financial limitations. See, I am in Hotel/Restaurant Management because I have always dreamed of being a wedding planner. I want to put together colors, flowers, cakes, stationary, everything involved with the design of a wedding. Well, my major is not very conducive to creativity. But I know that God has also given me a gift of hospitality which is the core of what this major is. It's neat to learn, in an odd way, the Gospel in my classes. The customers are first. We are serving them, no matter what. Basically we learn to give everything to these people. And, I realize that's what I want my life to be. My life is not about me. It's about serving others. And praise God, I get to do that. Whether it be now in every day life or later in a career. But, nothing is a waste and I am learning diligence and patience. So, why the song? I don't really know how I ended up where I am now. But, this is where I began. This week has been long and has made me frustrated with myself and where I am at. I enjoy literature and want to be drawing while I am studying business but I trust His Hand is in all of this. But this song has to do with frustration with my sin, and I think that is sparked by my circumstances. Yet, I have to realize I can not let my circumstances control my heart. I feel like the first verses of this song is where I see myself now... "What in that moment when you were running so hard and fast made you stop and turn for home?" And I see that. I won't go into details... but I see where that began after my Senior year of high school and well, the day God saved me (at 8 years old). But there are so many things now that I still struggle with and get frustrated with and say, God, I can't turn from this... I want to but it's so hard to do. So, I feel like I am in the process of these lines... "She said what on earth made you stay here When you finally figured out what I was all about He said I always knew you'd do the right thing Even though it might take some time." So, I feel like I'm trying to figure out how to obey God. Now, that doesn't really line up with the Gospel... trying to figure it out. It's God's work in us. But it breaks my heart to disobey Him, and He gives me the choice not to. I am learning how to turn from these bad habits of sin. And it's going to take time. My mom reminds me of this verse often and it brings great comfort... "For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus." - Philippians 1:6. He does the work and I am going to put my trust in Him till my dying day. And like the song says... "Love wash over a mulitude of things." His love covers every yucky part of who I am. That was rambling... but I needed to vent for a bit. Back to world lit.

Here's a visual... cause I promised I would give some pictures. Isn't Fall pretty? Go to http://www.landscape-photo.net for some really pretty pictures.