aggh, so long.

i haven't been posting... aggh. and now i just posted a really long post on a new blog my sister, sarah, created... http://yearehis.blogspot.com/ which i am pretty stinkin excited about. and, well, i am going to steal a portion of that post for here.

this a beautiful passage from the book, The Allure of Hope. simple encouragement in the waiting process... and seeking Christ as the love of our lives.

"In the days following my broken engagement, I predictably couldn't shake my fiance's eyes from my memory. They are deep and clear eyes, eyes that had held such light for me. The eyes are the window to the sould; his eyes mirrored a noble and passionate soul, touched by God. I wished for the image of his eyes to go away - not out of contempt, just out of needing relief. If I could just banish those eyes from my memory, then the loss would be lessened and I could function. God visited me there. He didn't ask me to remove my love's eyes from my heart, nor did He chide me for trying to banish his memory. He knew it was just too much for me.

So He gave me a vision. The vision was of Jesus waiting for me at the end of an aisle more beautiful than that of any European cathedral. When I arrived and looked in His eyes, I saw the same light I had seen in my love's eyes, only perfected and true. I realized at that moment that the light I had loved in my fiance's eyes had been Jesus all along. Did I love this man? Oh, yes, no question. But Jesus was showing me that what I most needed, what I thought I had lost, was still with me. The vision continued with feasting and festivities celebrating our love. It surpassed anything I could imaging. I had a glimpse of finally knowing Him. I knew then that it was true:
No eye has seen, no ear has heard,
and no mind had imagined
what God has prepared
for those who love Him... 1 Corinthians 2:9" - Jan Meyer

i am also going to post some of the lyrics from the hymn, I Asked the Lord. wow. this is one of my favorites. we sang this at RUF on monday and it really, really comforted me.

I Asked the Lord - John Newton

1. I asked the Lord that I might grow
In faith and love and every grace
Might more of His salvation know
And seek more earnestly His face

2. Twas He who taught me thus to pray
And He I trust has answered prayer
But it has been in such a way
As almost drove me to despair

3. I hoped that in some favored hour
At once He'd answer my request
And by His love's constraining power
Subdue my sins and give me rest

4. Instead of this He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart
And let the angry powers of Hell
Assault my soul in every part

5. Yea more with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Cast out my feelings, laid me low

6. Lord why is this, I trembling cried
Wilt Thou pursue thy worm to death?
"Tis in this way" The Lord replied
"I answer prayer for grace and faith"

7. "These inward trials I employ
From self and pride to set thee free
And break thy schemes of earthly joy
That thou mayest seek thy all in me,
That thou mayest seek thy all in me."